To Have Loved and Gain

Falling in love is the most difficult thing a person can do. To truly love someone, you have to be completely self-less. You have to forgive and be accountable. You have to be loyal and thoughtful. Until you can do these things without thinking twice; you're not in love. Love is a serious sentiment; and today to many people throw it around with no real commitment. My partner and I had the rockiest beginning. We were tested and when we thought we passed, we were tested again. The moment it became real to us, is when we could say :"I love you" and not think twice. It took a long time. It took many fights. It took many tears. When it's right, nothing beats that feeling. Our son will have two great parents, who fell together...then fell in love. We took our time.

Bittersweet Motherhood

Nobody is ever prepared to be a mother, and when the glorious day comes that you, yourself will be a mother, it's surreal. You gather with your friends and discuss what you will do when your child tests your skills. The truth is, you don't know what you're going to do until about a second before you do it. For me the inability to plan is a huge anxiety, but exciting none the less. I learned through helpful advice that going through the motions can be beautiful, and I now agree. My baby turned three months old yesterday, and I couldn't help, but think what kind of mother I would be. I want my child to be happy. I was raised with a tremendous pressure to succeed and knows first hand how detrimental that can be for a child full of hope. I have always been successful in my life, weather it be academics or athletics. Motherhood is a different walk in the park. I can't be the best in the state. I can't have a 4.0, but I can give my little man love like only a mother can. Take life each day, and don't spend your time planning life away. That's my advice for being a new mama.